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4/19/19: MULTITUDES, Motherfucker!

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You know, I’m not gonna lie: I’m living a lifelong dream by channeling my inner Samuel L. Jackson on a recorded podcast. “Oh, I’m sorry, did I break your concentration?”

Hi! I’m Coach Sarah, and This is The Morning Mantra.

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Hi, my name is MK Fleming. I'm a run coach based in Denver, Colorado. But this isn't a podcast about running, exactly. Don't tell my clients, but *whispers* we're never really talking about the running. When you know a crap-tastic event is coming it helps to have a mantra to keep you centered and focused as you move through it. You don't have to be an athlete to be hashtag #coachedandloved by coach MK. And if you are here, then you are hashtag #winningatlife.


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Today’s mantra is: Multitudes, motherfucker. MULTITUDES, motherfucker.

I feel a little self-conscious sometimes when I walk in and out of my office wearing running tights, or when I shut my door, go live on Facebook and start side-planking. My workplace is fairly buttoned down and serious, which isn’t to say that it isn’t full of kind and generous-minded people. But sometimes I feel like I am a whole different person in a world they don’t even know about.


I read an article by Anne Helen Petersen this week in which she talks about the way people – women, specifically – feel like they can be a version of themselves in private Facebook groups that they don’t dare to be in the offline world: in the best cases, she writes, these can be spaces “where your voice feels visible, your opinion is valued, and your body is secondary — or discussed on your own terms.” Being your unvarnished self “in real life” feels risky: the people in my workplace seeing me do sideplanks on my lunch break would allow them into a world that I have kept protected from them, for the most part. I don’t want to invite in their opinions and their judgment, and I don’t want them to feel like they need to worry about mine.

All this is to say that when I show a tiny corner of my running coach self to my office mates, I feel an instinctual pulling back, minimizing, mitigating. I fear tonal inconsistency. I’m afraid people will think I’m putting on.


And so. what. if. they. do. Because I am not.


I’ve always loved Walt Whitman’s line from “Song of Myself”: “Do I contradict myself? Very well then, I contradict myself. I am large; I contain multitudes.”


That’s right. MULTITUDES, motherfucker!


So when I show up to day care to pick up my daughter in my running clothes instead of a button-down and slacks, I take a deep breath, lock my cage, and smile. When I head out to meet my best running friend at lunch time on a Thursday, I stride breezily through the office and out the door instead of slinking. If anyone has anything to say about it besides “have a great run!” (and go figure, they usually don’t), my answer is this: that’s right. I contain multitudes. And in my head I roar “MULTITUDES, motherfucker!”


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